Adicha's

2010-08-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

ThAt PeDaGoGiCaL rEaLiSaTiOn

It's like everywhere I go,

everyone I see,

the same chaos as inside me,

inside them I see..

Seen the closeness,

seen the time,

seen the distance,

seen the mile.

Moved from the glories of desolation,

to the frozen wine,

the colors were the same,

but they were not mine..

They merged in me,

or they just seemed,

I got closer,

to see them as they beamed.

What I saw was a mirror,

blinding my two eyes,

Didn't want to go further,

just prayed some cease..

Wanna go away,

wanna besiege the proximity,

wanna embrace my mortality,

wanna worship Thy entirety.

2009-09-02T12:03:00.000-07:00

BeNuMbEd FoReVeR

The gospel of my strength only I had imagined,
clinging on to what you had already snatched from me..
Making myself believe,time and again,
of the sanctity of the faith I had in you..
I breathed,waiting for my dulcet futurity,
making myself forget the curse I was given..
Smiled to you,running far away from myself,
standing numb & Encore! it happened again..
But as uncanny as it can be called,
the pain I'd thought would kill me,I didn't sense at all..
And it was then I asked myself,
am I happy now? or I'm benumbed forever :)

2009-04-23T12:57:00.000-07:00

16Th FeBrUaRy 2009

Melancholy in the bells of gay,
came to me as a birthday present,
I was gifted the deep...
I was gifted the peasant...
Unaware of the crudity that lay in my arms,
went on to have a pleasant dawn.
Sometimes it came, not true that it didn't
The clinching chrome of my happiness,
lay waiting for the taint of desires,
to perish on the pyre.
Melancholy in the bells of gay,
Came to me as a birthday present!
:)

2008-09-05T12:50:00.000-07:00

UnTiTlEd
its like im digging deeper and deeper,
to get my treasure,
the more i dig,the tougher it becomes for me..
to come out
and what i find deep there..
in the darkness,is not a treasure..
but a beautiful coffin made for me.
living is just the same,
only that the moments spent in the travel..
are rue less..! so lovely!
i die with queer gay..
that the illusion was worth living..
and the diamond i thought i fell for,
LiBeRaTeD me.....

2008-06-17T22:17:00.000-07:00

ThE cRiMsOn RuSh

in my veins,

through my brain,

from the heart that pains

..its a crimson rush..

seeps in a blue,

beats in a crew,

ignoring a few

..its a crimson rush..

flowing in in the rain,

bursting out in a stain,

sane no sane

..its a crimson rush..

oh,the blush,

and the first love mush,

fainting as slush

..its a crimson rush..

from a dainty stew,

to a gloomy dew,

running down those few

..its a crimson rush..

complicated to the cell,

goes with no one to the hell,

sole meaning to death

..its a crimson rush..

from the mother,

to the cute,

from the blatant,

to the mute

..its a crimson rush..

scary as to see,

growing loud in deceit,

beware of its bleak

..it is..a crimson rush..

2008-02-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

tHe ApOcAlYpSe Of My LiFe

Dastardly moving on,

broken into a thousand pieces,

facing the world with no more fear in the eyes,

I reached the apocalypse of my life.

Fading away slowly,

drowning in the mistakes made,

mourning my birth,

I reached the apocalypse of my life.

Eyes are still open,

holding a mirror to the world,

mortified by happiness,

I reached the apocalypse of my life.

Glorifying the blotches on my soul,

with redoubled tiredness,

scabbed wounds all over,

I reached the apocalypse of my life.

2008-02-07T08:44:00.000-08:00

ThE ToRcH oF lIfE

there in the darkness,

there i see,

the golden torch,

waiting for me!

have to walk through the dark,

through the thorny trees,

to touch the gold

and show the glee.

I'm ready for the tests,

the tests of life,

i have that zeal

and zest to fly!

no matter what comes on the way,

i promise my lord,

i'll not lose hope

cos there's a fire inside

wanna conquer the world

& reach the heights

to touch the torch,

& to feel the light

yes i am the best,

no one can deny,

i know its in me,

the instinct to fly!

2007-07-13T05:37:00.000-07:00

ThOrNs On My WaY

I feel so cold and lonely today,

even after the beautiful rain washed these tears away.

they say,we're there for you,

and when time comes,all I find is me and the blue.

sometimes I say to myself I won't care for anyone,

damn why god made me human.

this darkness gives me relief,

cos' no one can see my grief.

like an ugly thorn on a rose,

I hang on to someone close.

give me pain,hurt me,

Im a self sadist,who loves ME.

take me with you O winds,

break me into pieces and leave no mark to see.

For thorns on my way are endless,

and Im weak enough to Bleed..

2007-07-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

CoMmEmOrAtIoNs...of childhood...

Sorrows

up on a hill,

there sat a girl who looked ill.

because of all the conflicts in her house,

she kept quiet and sat in a corner like a frightened mouse.

she wanted to say a lot to the people

cos' she was pinched much deeper.

she could'nt speak a word

because she knew that her parents would cut her with a sword.

she kept on taking inside all the sorrows,

and she knew that for her there won't come happy tomorrows.

her parents did'nt even bother,

as they were busy fighting with each other.

one day the girl decided to go to the lord,

and ask him that why she got a life o god.

her parents realised,

that they had finished their own child's life

& from then they never got wild.

but all in vain,cos' they had already

lost their only child...

The Rain

the rain is falling down the lane,

a few drops are also splashing on my window pane.

I can feel their intoxicating smell,

as the beautiful raindrops fell.

The air has become so fresh,

i can feel it through my flesh.

Some are big some are small,

these raindrops are rolling on the ramp like a ball.

Every person likes the rain,

and forgets all the sorrows and all the pains.

I wish the rain would never stop,

and keeps falling on my house top...

A Girl

always discriminated,

she is also eliminated,

from everywork she does,

except the kitchen work that she must!

she always has to bear,

of which the society does'nt care.

what bad has she done,

that to face the ills of the society

she has to be the one?

her parents don't bother about her,

and jus dump her in any corner of the earth!

she is never respected,

so is always suspected.

but it is the girl,

who is fair and mild.

soft-spoken,she is a love's token.

people don't realise the need of a girl,

but there will a day come when for

a girl child they will go wild!!

The Bloomin' Flowers

the flowers used to bloom in the fields,

the pink ones the field yields!

like the small children growing

with their brothers and sisters,

they used to shake like

twisters!

as they wait in the dry plains,

for the cool rains!

to bloom once again

in the fields,

but now all the ones the field yields!!!!

The Robber

in the middle of the night,

there came a man who was'nt alright!

he had to rob a small happy house,

where lived his own spouse.

tears trembling off his eyes,

he went inside with disguise.

he took as little as he could,

because it was his own house in which he stood.

he kissed his wife & confessed,

that he has robbed his own nest.

as he came out of the house,

a strong lightning aroused.

it hit the tree beside which he was,

and...in a second the man's life was lost.

I'll stand by

whenever there is a need,

and there's no one beside,

i'll always stand by.

whenever you feel weak,

and there's no one to peek,

i'll always stand by.

whenever you are sad,

and there's no one to make you glad,

i'll always stand by.

keep trust in me please,

cos' i promise i'll always help you ease!

I feel I can fly

i feel i can fly

in the beautiful skies,

like the birds and butterflies

i feel i can fly

through the fresh air and clouds

which are as pure as life

i feel i can fly

in the shadow of nature

under the morning sun

i feel i can fly

around the earth

and by the clouds

i feel i can fly

like the dry leaves

as they fall down after they die

i feel i can fly

with my arms wide open

as you see me go by

i feel i can fly

like fairies do

with their friends beside

i feel i can fly....

Friendship

it is a ship that can never drown,

and is a friend's crown.

one can never afford to break it,

as it is really difficult to make it.

it is the reason for a smile,

and lasts for hundreds of miles.

you have to make it as strong as you can,

because it is in the heart of every man.

it is like a shining star in the big sky,

which you have to capture by jumping high.

never ignore it,

and try to make more like it.

cos' when you want it,you need!

you'll always get the best of it.

it is "friendship" that can never drown,

and never lets you frown.

2007-07-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

Why Live Long?

they say that life is short,

I don't think so,

infact I feel its long enough,

to give you back what you sow.

have you looked at the life of a miser?

praying each night,

praying to god to take his life,

or wanders around to gain some might.

it's not easy,

to live in this world,

either you get transformed into a beast,

or you change others.

all are social animals,

hiding those fires of rage inside,

hypocriting the impressions of called friends

and hit them hard,

when the moment strikes.

here all are needy,

for the blood of others,

keep the trigger on their loved ones,

all feelings wither.

you still need to live more you animal

and suckle like parasites on each other?

leave thise world as soon as possible,

for it can reduce your sins my brother!

2007-06-27T02:42:00.000-07:00

You're Magic

came into my world as a dream,

never knew we'd become friends or more than that,

you struck my heart with one go,

you're magic!

never felt like this before,

I was as tough as stone,you melted me,

how.i don't know.

life became beautiful,

you're magic!

I knew we could'nt belong together forever,

but I loved loving you,

you became an addiction,

you're magic!

wish you keep loving me,

wish i lose my breath the day you betray me,

your love made me human,

you're magic!

the best thing that happened to me ever,

can't affor to lose you,

you're the best!

you're magic!

want you more than myself my love,i mean it,

crave for you day and night,

you rule my senses,its strange bt,

you're magic! yes you are...

2007-06-27T01:45:00.000-07:00

It's DaRkNeSs

What I see in dreams,

the one i feel close to me,

where the sky ends,

It's darkness,

It's darkness.

It's all mine,

when I'm crimson and when I'm fade,

what brings me fear,

It's darkness,

It's darkness.

The most intimate,

the one that hides my secrets,

what no one can take from me,

It's darkness,

It's darkness.

When pain has come to day,

and heart pounds and sways,

what hides those tears,

Yes,it's darkness,

It's darness.

Things when don't seem clear,

when I feel there's no one to share,

who comes to the rescue,

It's darkness,

It's darkness.

The one I love and the one for which i rove,

It's darkness,

Yes it is.....Darkness!

2006-10-18T02:07:00.000-07:00

JUST TELL ME WHY!!!

Look into my eyes,

and you will see,

the tears of sorrow,

held tightly.

You won't understand,

what makes me cry,

why my eye is red,

full of sigh.

No one will ever know,

what i feel,

how this heart pounds,

and does it even beat?

I wonder sometimes,

why i came into this world,

is it my fate?

that my heart should burn?

People understand others' sorrows,

why not mine?

am i the odd one out?

or is it the God's sign.

Is it you?

who makes me cry?

or you're the one,

who'll change my life!

I am full of questions,

that i know,

but what to do?

cos' now i wanna GROW!!

I am not abnormal, mind you!!

just that i'm different,

from all of you!

I can touch the sky,

and also kiss the rain,

but why don't u understand,

I need someone to stand by.

Why do you read this poem?

just tell me why?

Is it becoz you wanna oblige me?

or you love me,plz dont lie!!

23/07/2006